Belated posts...grrr

This was our day at the zoo.  You can't really see my outfit BUT these are some GREAT pictures!  Aww, I love my little family!

I was wearing my Old Navy tube top (black), AE distressed jeans, Forever 21 flower earrings, and my TOMs.

Express top, ReRock jeans, Old Navy flip flops, large faux diamond studs

Express polo, AE skinny cargos, TOMs, Forever 21 flower earrings

Gap zipper back cuffed sleeve top, LTB jeans, Old Navy flip flops, large faux diamond studs

Hollister flutter sleeve hooded pullover, VS tank, Rerock jeans, Old Navy flip flops, Forever 21 earrings

Pac Sun dress, Gap sheer cardigan, TOMs, Forever 21 flower earrings

VS baby doll tank, VS tank, AE jeans, TOMs (which now have a hole in the toe...!@#*4)*%@$@$#%#!!!!)

Yesterday-August 11

Gap top, Express editor pants, Toms, Forever 21 earrings

Let me update you on life as of lately:  Jay got a new job.  WONDERFUL!  The job training is a 17 week process; some shifts are 12 hours long; I AM MISSING HIM.  Let me first say, IT IS WONDERFUL AND IT IS A HUGE BLESSING that he has this job.  This job is a long term investment to our future.  This job is needed--that being said, this job sucks ass, I DO NOT LIKE HIM BEING GONE.  Jay is my BEST FRIEND, my helper, partner, buddy, my shoulder to cry on, my arm to punch, and my ear to yell in.  I NEEEEEEED HIM AROUND.  Because of his new job, different pay periods, etc.,  finances have been pretty tight.  I have taken on a second job, which I really like, BUT cannot make enough and pay for childcare ($1500 a month--more than our house and car payments COMBINED) if I stay there.  I will be leaving that second job to work full time at the preschool, through which I will pay less for childcare and will have more take home money (again, another blessing, THANK YOU BRIAN AND MELISSA, you have done more for our family than you will ever know. Our family will ALWAYS love you).  Jay and I have always planned on me staying with the boys till they entered school.  This was the plan when we had Rafe.  Then we had Judah and Gianni and my four year hold on a career turned into a eight year hold on a career.  I would like to stay with the boys until they are in school, but sometimes life happens and (like it or not) you just have to do what you have to do.  I have to start on my career.  I have to help my family make money.  I have to help build a future.  I have to.  I have to for my sanity.  So, this spring/summer I am going back to school to get my MSW/MPH, and I am REALLY excited.  

If you knew me in college you probably knew that I LOVED school, I LOVED writing papers, I LOVED homework, I LOVED tests, I LOVED succeeding and feeling accomplished I LOVED THE CHALLENGE...and you probably knew that I DID NOT love you (yes, this is true, I hated many a people...and if you were one of them, you knew it--Randy, I still claim to have kicked your ass in front of the dorms; how does it feel to have little old me beat you down?  Asshole.)  Anyway, I am looking forward to the work.  I am looking forward to the challenge.

Because of the old man working all the time, me working all the time, having three kids and being totally piss poor, I have been missing the gym and my regular workouts...and my daily tanning.  THIS IS KILLING ME.  I have worked out AT LEAST 3 days a week for at LEAST 10 years. Let me tell you, missing this much exercise (AND TANNING) is just unacceptable.  Seriously, I feel like an old, worn out, albino, soft wrinkled Gumby...AND I DONT LIKE IT.  MUST. WORK. OUT. MUST. WORK. OUT. MUST. WORK. OUT.

There is more.  There is also a secret family crisis.  There is having three kids.  There is stress.  Having unacceptable self-destructive ways of dealing with stress is not going to cut it anymore.  I have to deal with stress and anxiety better than I have in the past.  Ive said it before, I am best in a crisis; I thrive when the world has fallen apart--I step up and crush any and all obstacles.  But, I am not good with the petty bull shit everyday life stressors.  Those damn things take a toll on me. My confidence, my view of myself, has been shot.  Mope mope mope.  Too much...but honestly, there is so much potential in the things that are happening.  

Blah blah...here is my "womanwear" for the day:

Express top, Express Editor pants (a happy surprise from my WONDERFUL husband), Target Merona sandals, Express rhinestone hoops

FINALLY...

Ok.  I am vowing NOW to not let myself get behind like this AGAIN.  Craziness!  Here are the last week and a half outfits--still dressing like a woman!  BAM!

Monday.  Im sporting some nice, new "womanly" dress pants, and the boys are wearing their new Superhero T-shirts (Thank you GRAMMY!).  I have not worn dress pants in YEARS.  I bought a few pairs.  Monday-first time to wear my new dress pants-I kicked myself, WHY THE HELL DID I GET RIG OF ALL MY THONGS?  I had a HUGE panty-line-- if you happened to see me that Monday and mistook my ass for and 80 year old's panty-lined mom-jean ass--I hate you.  I had to make do with the panties I had.  Monday afternoon, I MIIIIGHT have...Maaaaaybe....hastily and furiously decided to just totally ditch the panties (sick, right?)...Monday night I stocked up on thongs.  

Judah, Rafe, Gianni Rocco, Librarian butt

Express Top, Express Editor pants, Old Navy sandals, Target earrings, Panty-line from hell

Tuesday

Gap cardigan, PacSun tank, LTB jeans, TOMs

Wednesday

Express sheer shoulder top, Express Editor pants, Gap flats, Forever 21 flower studs

I missed Thursdays picture but I wore an Express polo, ReRock jeans, TOMs and my forever 21 flower studs

Friday

Gap cardigan, Hollister (oh kill me now) top, AE belt, LTB jeans, TOMs

Saturday

VS tank, AE jeans, TOMs, Large faux diamond studs

I missed Sundays picture, (WHAT THE HECK?  I MISSED TWO PICTURES THIS WEEK?!  Ugh, fail.) I wore a gap top, ReRock jeans, TOMs

Monday

Forever 21 Tunic, Gap high-waisted belt, Express Editor pants, Forever 21 sandals, large gold hoops

Tuesday

Old Navy top, Gap wide pin-striped pants, TOMs (which now have a hole in the toe...I SWEAR I cut my toenails.  Sick, right?), Forever 21 earrings

I promise I will be better.  I have a couple giveaways coming up...two clothing items...eeek!  Ok.  MUST. POST. DAILY.

Sunday...

Gap top, AE jeans, TOMs, Faux diamond studs

Faux diamond studs

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