Gap off the shoulder dolman tee, VS tank, Gap dark wash vintage flare, gray TOMS, Forever21 large silver earrings.
Things that happened today that me feel like I, quite possibly, have had a boost of confidence:
I spent the morning running errands for family in the hospital while the kiddos played at a friends house (THANK YOU Sara, Arlie and Mrs. Janice). By the way, the update on the family in the hospital is that things are looking...better? Keep praying. The kids playing at a friends house is a BIG DEAL; I only talk to people in ways that I don't have to any real personal interaction (via facebook), in casual passing (grocery store, 711, mall), if they are my family, or if my life situation requires me to (work...etc...well, hmm, there is only work). When my phone rings, if it is not Jay, my mom, dad, or sister, I stare at the phone and anxiety fills my whole body--most of the time I can't bring myself to answer. When it stops ringing, I sit, filled with anxiety and then wonder to the point of insanity WHAT THE HELL THEY WANTED. So, as you can imagine, I never never never never never ask people outside of my family for help. Since family has been in the hospital, I have done two things out of the norm: 1. Talked to people (I actually called someone). 2. Relied on others (outside of family). Now, I will say this, (I am going to toot my horn a bit) I am actually quite remarkable in stressful situations or when there is a crisis--really, I am fantastic. I thrive under REAL pressure, yet have major social anxiety...I know, I don't understand this either. Having family in the hospital, I believe, falls under the category of "stressful" even "crisis situation". Regardless, calling and asking for help, and actually allowing the help to happen IS A BIG DEAL.
Things that happened today that made me feel......(tilt my head and shrug my shoulders) "Meh" (pronounced m-ehhhh):
1. When walking to the elevator (I was probably 10 feet away) holding THREE Big Gulps, an overnight bag on one shoulder and my purse on the other, the elevator doors closed and I heard the old man inside chuckle. 2. Rafe came out of the Jason's Deli bathroom with his pants and underwear at his ankles and walked all the way back to our table without ME noticing (everyone, EVERYONE else noticed). 3. Rafe told me he wanted a bird to peck me.
Boost in confidence? Eh? Meh.